Two things (Sorry) Since my mom died I have ignored Mothers day. I stopped celebrating even with others. I used to give sisters, cousins and my friends and my godmom card and gift. I have been having difficult time really complicated grief with my moms death. My Godmom seems upset that I stopped giving her card and gift and calling on the day. I told her plus wrote her several times my feelings. She doesn't get it. Shes like 80 years old I think. This year I'm going to try but why can't people get how hard it is for me. I don't want to deal with it. I don't want to look at cards, I don't want to say happy mothers day. I go through this with every holiday. Your thoughts please, I would very much appreciate it.

2nd thing is my moms 2nd cousin died we werent' real close but she was at my moms bed side when my mom was sick. I would like to go with my moms brother, my uncle to the wake and am having a panic attack about it. Haven't been to a wake or funeral since my moms don't want to go, feeling sick about it. But I will be guilty if I don't go. Again, your thoughts would be appreciated.

Anjelmarie