After two weeks of weird symptoms, physical depression and mental agitation, I realize I am nowhere near stable.

Today I feel confused. I had to take my son to a doctor appointment and after I dropped him off at school, I felt like I wanted to drive home as fast as I could. Then I got the idea that I had a half tank of gas and wondered how far and how fast I could go. I was listening to music and with the beat of the music, the world was becoming visible to me; a flash of trees here, the cars in front of me, houses there, the sky, the trees; everything was becoming crisp and in focus.

Now I am home and I can actually feel the energy draining from my body as if someone pulled the plug out of a full bath tub.

Last night I took the Mood Tracker quiz and I scored 24 points depressed, 25 points manic. I am guessing that is pretty mixed, although the numbers aren't scary high.

Most of my episodes are mixed lately.

Eight more days until I see the shark talker again, unless I go to the hospital first.