It is really good that you can recognize your own instability. That's where mood charting is so important, at least for awhile. We have to learn to recognize our own symptoms and take action to try to stabilize, whether that be seeing our therapist, our pdoc, having meds adjusted, or the hospital. It's just what we have to do sometimes. I hope you will get through this phase without needing to be hospitalized, but if that is what you need, that is what you need. Take care.