I have been knocked out since this afternoon. I have been sleeping on and off. Every time I woke up I immediately had obsessive images of SI. It was my first thought. I have to remind myself that these are disturbing images, and that they are not things that I need to do. I generally think in images. When it is time to eat breakfast, I have an image of myself eating, or making breakfast and so on. They are like brief flashes. The same think is happening with these SI ones. I know they are just images and I don't have to give in to them. It is really hard to keep myself from doing it. I take my next Seroquel in a couple of hours, so I am going to have some dinner and chill tonight. If I still have these images tomorrow I will have to call my T.
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