Lonescout - I agree with all the others here - it is selfish but you're not a bad person. You won't always feel this way and when you feel better, you won't believe you wanted to end it. My brother ended his life 2 yrs ago this month and it causes incredible mental anguish for loved ones and friends. The legacy lingers for generations as 'so and so's the one who ended his/her life". If you're in immediate danger please go to your nearest emergency room. Here is a compassionate website for you to look at. You can get through this bad stage. This website is also handy for anyone who's feeling very down. Your children and wife really need you.

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/