Thanks Sanity.
That is sort of what I had in mind for the time being... just to go back to being ME.. not worrying about what he is doing or thinking... it's just that I want so much to know LOL
The date on Saturday night should cheer me up and get me back focused on living my life without thinking too much about it
The guy is a new one.... a horse trainer and trots driver... I had a relationship with a similar guy back when I was 14/15... so we have a pretty good common ground because I know a lot about his work/life