ERRRRRRRRRRRRRR, I just want to complain okay? Vent, explain, get validation.

I had to leave my home at 6:30 today to get to an 8:30 meeting. I get to clock the time I leave as it is travel to the meeting. So I go to this meeting and decide that I hadn't had time to get to clients in another town that I usually don't work in so I stopped in there for a two hour flea ridden visit trying to pull magic out of thin air. I have to be very cautious with these people as they like me and have kicked everyone else out. Their daughter who lives there has a hording disorder so imagine the rest. By rights I had planned on leaving work at 2:30 and going swimming but I had several serious paperwork issues to deal with.

I went to my office and really struggled for two hours getting things faxed and copied and filed. My son called to tell me that his girlfriend tripped over the dog gate and had a badly sprained ankle, could I bring home crutches? I leave my office and stop to hand-deliver paperwork. I am on my cell dictating a letter. I stop at the local grocer and tell my adopted daughter who works in the deli that I still love her very much. She says "you sure"? I said no doubt. Been grieving that she has left the family and hates us. I decide I am so exhausted I am just going home and maybe a swim on the way.

I tried to reach the girlfriend, no answer so I felt like I had to get right home to tend to her as she was home alone. But, I pulled over and made phone calls for work and checked my voice mail where I got heck from two different people. I was so mad, I have been so right out straight! and one of the things was my fault, a visit I failed to write in my book.

I left a note this morning for son to vacuum floors and girlfriend to do dishes. NOTHING WAS DONE! I had hubby put up the gates cause son complained about the dogs making messes and jumping on his bed when they were wet and muddy. I find the gate trashed, broken sharp plastic everywhere! I have to vacuum, mop and do dishes.

He is now at work after classes and does not get out until 9:30.

I have been so incredibly angry. He complains about my dogs and the groceries I buy. His girlfriend is swollen and in pain and he won't even allow me to bring her to a nurse friend. He is protective as she has anxiety.

I should not have to do housework when I have three children who are home a heck of a lot more then I. My hubby came home after a 9-5 and was late. My youngest was working and riding with him. They had 20 minutes before play rehersal!

Okay okay, my back hurts and I am in bed now waiting for the blue ice to freeze so the girlfriend can be tended to.

The house is relatively quiet, the animals are fed and I have my a.c. on and a flimsy nightie. i am so hot.

That is my complaint. I am sorry I can't be perfect as it makes me feel scared and vulnerable. I hate being fussed at. I am tired. I want to do well. I want to not be so stressed. I am trying. I am mad at this kid who never is responsible for nothing! It's always someone elses fault.

Hope everyone else had a better day then mine. Is it really over?