im feeling a million differnt things at once and i am sooo out of it yet i am soo anoyed.i want to scream because people are forcing me to interact with them.I DONT WANT TO.i want to just sit here and expend no energy on anything.then my husband will come and just about sit in my lap saying something like hi honey hi honey.you so cute et... and i want to scream at him just leave me the **** alone.dont know if im real depressed or what .i know i have dissapeared way into my head and i love that in my own world and i hate when someone intrudes.but something is wrong really reeally wrong and i cant figure it out.maby i dont want to i dont know.i dont even know what i want from writing this.im hating my husbands voice.why did he have to stay home today.it is my time to just dissapear and he isnt letting me i need to and im going to go nutz if i have to stay focused and interact with poeple all day .im shure he knows that im just dissapearing into my head and he is trying to keep me here.i hate it why do i need to be antware or interact with anyone it isnt his busness.if im in my head im ok i can hold things together.sorry i so hate life today