Well... the first thing I would do is talk with your doc about this. While you are diagnosed Bipolar, that doesnt mean there may be other underlying problems. Recently when I started to get seen again for my Bipolar, I mentioned to the NP that I have issues and they didnt seem to fit with Bipolar. I explained, for instance, that if I go anywhere or do anything, I want to be with someone. If I go to the store, I call my wife as soon as I get in the car. If I am outside working on something, I want my wife with me, even though she cant help.

He mentioned that I very well could have other issues such as borderline personality disorder, and that some of the meds I have been put on can help with this.

As for "When will I feel like Normal?" . Like the intake nurse told me last week, normal is just a setting on a dish washer. We all have our own different types of normal. You might try talking to your doc about these issues... and see if there are medications for the Bipolar that can also help with these other problems. I know you said you have switched medications in the past, so this might not be an option as there may not be many you havent tried. I am not sure what they can offer for the Paranoia but I think it may be a different class of meds than you have tried.

I wish you the best of luck in getting these issues worked out. Sometimes it feels like we have too much on our plate. Your doing good so far, you are at least seeing a problem so that is step one. Be open and honest with your docs as to what is going on, and ask of them possible solutions. Im sure you will find the right combination soon

Good Luck