Never should there be shame in problems of any kind, especially those dealing with mental health.

I am VERY proud of you to be able to acknowledge the danger, the images of SI, and to be aware of them. You obviously understand somewhere that it will not accomplish anything. You have children and I would imagine they mean the world to you. When you have those visions, are they something you can hold on to.... spend time with... hear laughing.. so that it can help clear your mind of these negative images?

Many others here have also struggled with SI, and we all know that ultimatly, it does nothing for us. Take rest knowing that your not alone and that others here obviously show deep concern for you and your safety. No shame with us.... so there should be no shame in those that help treat us.

Take care and be safe.