Beautifullybroken, How could you feel yourself to be a "Lost Cause"? Has someone judged you to be one? So you are young, , that means you are going through the hardest part of your life, I don't want to go back there again!
It all hurt too much, I had no way to cope-now i have ways to cope i didn't have back then.
I have no idea what your heartbreaks are, or how you are dealing with them...
this is the first time I have replied to one of your threads; but it breaks my heart to hear you say that no one knows your suffering--of course no one knows truly what anyone else suffers here---we are all unique individuals, with unique problems and hardships. This does not mean that we cannot reach out to you, share, listen and care about you. You are so angry, you hurt so much. We are here (((HUGS)))-theo