I have many masks also--I wear them because i am afraid no one would really like me at all if they knew the real me. Yes, even at my age, I am petrified of showing myself completely as i am to anyone.
Only children do this, are real and show themselves as they truly are, they haven't been hurt -yet. Then they are hurt, and they learn to put on their masks-the ones that please others, the ones that society will accept.

I think i get what you mean- am i right? It's okay to wear your mask.

You need it now. No need to be sorry- --hugs- theo