I had PPD after my child was born. Mine hit especially hard since she was born terminally ill. We has Hospice living in our house 24/7 after she finally came home the hospital to "die". There were days I wished I had a gun in the house or I felt like driving my car into a tree. She somehow managed to live for 10 years. It was during this 10 year period I developed bipolar. I was just diagnosed with it. Is BP illness from the incredible stress I lived with for 10 years??? I truly cannot believe I am still alive.