Sending you hugs if that's OK. I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. I know you said that nobody understands what it's like to be you. And you're right that we don't know how your life is. But I can relate to the frustration of people saying "You're just a teenager. It's hormones, etc." Sometimes it seems like mental health professionals will only take one seriously until they reach adulthood, and that hurts.

Also, you are not a fool for posting, and you do deserve support. It is perfectly ok to express your emotions, even though sometimes it seems easier to keep them locked up inside. Is there a way that you can express your emotions safely, like keeping a journal?

I hope you are feeling better soon. If possible, please keep us updated on how you're doing.