Thank you so much.
You have no idea how much it means to me that you have both replied.
And with such lovely words.
It means so much.
Thank you.

I think I will try to rest now.
I have been awake for nearly 28 hours, and although I am exhausted, I can't seem to settle.

I will post later or in a bit if I fail to fall asleep and maybe post my original post... but I am scared to.

I did feel like I was bullied, more patronized and it hurt and made me feel very angry, I am sorry still for being so hostile in my edited post.

I hope you two have a good day, thank you again, for taking the time to read and type to me, thank you.