Med changes are very frustrating! I don't even know how many I've been on in the last 18 years. I was started on generic Lamictal in Feb. 2009 (along with clonazepam, seroquel, rozerem, ambien, and a thyroid medication) and I haven't had to be hospitalized at all since then. Things still aren't all roses and sunshine, LOL, but going over a year without having to be hospitalized is a BIG thing for me. My mood is much closer to stable than it's ever been, and that means that now I can finally start to work on issues dealing with my PTSD and anxiety. I'm just hoping now that these meds don't give out on me...I think that will always be a concern because it's happened so many times in the past with other meds.
I hope that you are able to find a medication that works for you soon, it's not fun to keep trying new things that end up not working or only work for awhile, but don't give up! Take care!
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From the movie The Hours: "If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, in the deep dark, and that only I can know. Only I can understand my condition. You live with the threat, you tell me you live with the threat of my extinction. Leonard, I live with it too."