((((((allme))))), i believe we all might feel like that one time or another, i even doubt myself, and my thinking, like"do i really believe..." and so on, i do think the husband-ugh-thinks i use it as a scape-you know"i was so angry, but thats just my mood swings thing..." right now as i write this i doubt myself, my mother and father wont really acknowledge that im mentally ill they usually blame external circumstances, and its tough to deal with...anyways your not alone with this thinking and maybe it will change....