Zoo... talking to you as someone who did NOT want to do the trauma work... A person does not get to pick when to do the trauma work... the soul decides for us. Mine hit me after 9 yrs of wonderful emotional health after I spent 5 yrs in therapy in college. My first T told me I would one day have the trauma come forward. He said it may hit like a truck - which is exactly what it did. All he could do at the time was teach me how to build my support systems and be ready for IT. He said "When the mind knows it is safe, it will release the trauma back to us."

If your trauma is comming forward, it is like childbirth... it is time.

Let your T know exactly what is going on and be honest with your self. The true trauma work only has to be done once according to my T. And I think he is right because the issues I allowed to come out fully - those are the things that no longer hurt me. Things I repressed or could not express fully are still there and I know I have to go through them in order to heal. You can make it through whatever you need to go through. Big hugs to you and I hope my words help in some way.