I sent him the letter, he got it, said he don't feel the same way ... but he said I was his best friend ... I'm still scared to face him, I can't, with how I feel, knowing he don't feel that way ... I'd be better off dead ... it would be way too awkward, too bad the Grim Reaper wouldn't come & take me NOW!!! I'm so embarrassed ...

Preparing for a life alone, I will never let anyone into my heart the way he did.