I was researching what my dream last night meant....I kept dreaming about a corpse laying in the water. I looked it up and it said either something in me has died or I'm shutting down....I would say that is right on the money...I feel like I died when my mom is and I'm also shutting down emotionally.

Yesterday I was in total isolation mode, numb, and didn't want to even talk to anyone. I've been told when you get this way your depression is really bad and that you need immediate help....too bad my counselor is out of her office until Monday...and the only support I can get is from the Crisis Line.