Hi firestar,
You will proably say I am the one that is loony! I meditate every day, and I am into the spiritual side of life. What you are describing I also have. Feel like being watched, and seeing out of the corner movement or shadow, and when I turn to look, it disappears.
Some say that there are two different etheral beings, one low(the one that comes around) and the other high.
I also have songs in my head on a regular basis.
Thatīs all really, but some of your descriptions sound very close to mine. Then again, it may be bp, that nasty of the nastiness!
nirmal
I've been away for awhile. Have had some nice 'normal'-ish days now that my lithium levels have become stable. However, I've been very stressed from studies and notice that I've started rapid cycling again.
But I'm mainly concerned that the things that are happening are hallucinations. I have a habit of brushing off any out of place things I hear or see briefly or sense. I just say I'm tried and/or my brain/eyes saw x thing that way for a reason because optical illusions are grand? So no big deal and nothing BP related... rational maybe? I'm starting to feel paranoid and seeing things in the corner of my eyes. And for some reason have this person I keep seeing in my head that I'm now starting to see 'in the flesh' for flashes at a time here and there.
Usually the closest I get to hallucinating is hearing music in my head that seems distance. Like an annoying neighbour with their stereo up. I haven't had any real scary stuff in years and my pdoc isn't aware of the past ones so hmm. Not sure what to do because I don't feel it's a major issue, but it's kind of creeping me out and my rational mind is telling me it is a major issue. But I can rationally tell it's not real, dammit. Sigh. I don't know! Also, disassociation, I hate you. </rant>[/quote]