(((((((( lost )))))))))) It breaks my heart to hear your pain - because I do understand and get it. I do know what it is like to have JOY stolen from your soul. It sounds like you are saying that someone destroyed your dreams and hopes and everything you thought was you.

The truth though is that YOU remain. You are still here... still standing.
Don't let the b@st@rds steal anything else from you! You CAN make a choice now to at least claim today. It will not be easy (oh boy do I know - I tried SU on this past Tue due to the pain). But you CAN do it and you can make it. I know what you say when you say you do not care about yourself anymore. But that is because someone else took YOU from you. You can get YOU back again. It will take a lot of work and effort... but you can do it.