It's not that easy, my life was never easy, it's been decades of hurt, and it took it's toll, I'm suicidal all the time, nothing ever goes right, I just wanna self-destruct, and get it over with, I have no positive feelings within myself.

Last night, I confessed to my best freind that I was in love with him. He don't feel the same way, and that tears me apart, I can no longer face him, and it took me a lifetime to find him.

I decided to never let love in, I found out 1st-hand it hurts way too much.