I have the same desire to somehow erase my existence, why couldn’t my parents have gotten into some stupid fight the night I was conceived, and then I never would have been.
I’m sorry you are in a bad place, with I could give you a map out, but I can’t, I can only wish you luck. That and tell you that you deserve to be happy (we all do)
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“If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. ... We need not wait to see what others do.” Gandhi
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