Saw the GP. So did hubby. Lots of tears.

Talked about the hospital appt. GP pointed out that it was going to be traumatic for me as it involved talking about myself to strangers. He seemd to view the outcomes positively though - guess it comes from being able to see the wider picture.

He has told me to increase one of my meds tonight. The new one the hospital prescribed he has told me not to take as i have previously had a bad reaction to another med of the same type. He is sure by next week I will be feeling much better. I really hope so. Al teast by the time I see him again I will have seen my counsellor and hopefully been able to work through some of my issues, aprticularly the most recent flashback.

I need to feel positive. I know that. I'm trying to think positive, but it is all such a struggle at the moment, and that struggle is not helped, in some respects, by people telling me how well I am looking and how well I seem to be coping. It's not helped by other colleagues taking out their frustrations on me, either.

Thank you all so much for your support - I don't know how I would get through this without it.

Caroline