Yes I definitely have separation anxiety myself about him. One time, when I was visiting my mother out-of-state, she just took him for a few minutes to the bank and I freaked out and had a panic attack, even though I told her it was okay. And then, she took me to the dentist and took him back to the house with her, that freaked me out as well. When she took me to therapy four times it wasn't as bad, because she left him with my grandmother and then went back to him, but I was upset when she picked me up and didn't bring him with her. I ran into the house when we got back. She's supposed to be coming to visit me soon, so I hope I can work on this phobia then. Since I trust my mom with my son a lot more than I trust most people.

I'm really glad that he is growing into his own self, it takes less energy out of me that he can feed himself and tell me when he's hungry or want he wants or whatever else. I'm liking that I can start to conversate with him. I don't exactly control him too much in the house. I let him explore and play, but it's outside the house, him being with other people that I control. I suppose that can limit his social developement. But I worry about him being around other people. I don't trust the other people with him. I worry about the days when he'll have to go to school and I worry about the days when he'll want to go over to his friend's houses or to their birthday parties. I want to give him that freedom, but I worry about how I'll be able to deal with it. I see many panic attacks ahead for me in my future.