My energy level is not very good and when doing a conventional 9-5 job after a couple weeks I am burnt out.

I am very good at abstract logic. I am a professional poker player who also recently starting trading stocks, after the crash fortunately.

The good thing about being a poker player is I set my own hours, I don't have to work if I don't feel up to it. On the flip side unlike regular jobs you can't work if your not sharp, you lose alot if you try that.

I have really struggled with tilt and negative emotions. I have lost more than a quarter million of the past few years in tilting and playing when I shouldn't. Still made 40k a year during that stretch, just would have made a lot more without those problems.

I have worked really hard at it and the problem has mostly gone away. What I discovered is my frustration that lead to playing very bad and keep playing when losing wasn't caused because of the losing. I would take my frustration and stress out by playing when I know I shouldn't. It was only once I started to work hard at reducing stress that I got things under control. Prayer, meditation and some hypnosis really helped.

Another problem now is my energy level is very low. Have only been able to play a couple hours at most for a stretch and havne't been able to play in the past 2 weeks. That is frustrating, but techniques have really helped to reduce the stress. Next week I will see pdoc and ask about adding ADD meds.

Oh, and I've only had one manic episode before diagnosed, none after. IF I were manic I might have lost it all thinking I can beat anyone.