This is not a punishment... you're no to blame... you're a great loving mother to your children - that I've seen with my very own eyes. You always put your children first. You have been used, abused, taken for granted, misjudged and mistreated... but you said NO! IT'S ENOUGH! You had to for yourself and for your beloved children. Now the abuse has been exchanged with new problem which of course isn't fair on you in any way. Right now you live in limbo... not knowing what on Earth will happen. No words can take away the pain you feel or solve your problems for you... but near future will show the way. Like my therapist says: "In some way it has to work... because in no way it does not." Still to live in this turmoil is eating at you more than anything has ever done before. I'm with you from a distance each and ever day and night. When you need to shout - shout... when you need to cry - cry... be silent together with me - be silent... I'm always here for you emotionally. I wish I could do more practically...
I will not let you fall! You're my very best friend and I love you and your children!



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