Thank you! That is a good list. I do mostly reading, watching films, online research and chatting to friends, meeting up with friends and family, writing, hot shower.

It does not help that I ve had the flue for the past 2 weeks - so any physical activity is out of the question until I am better. Its a complicated situation for me. And its a bit different to Belle's. I dont have my own place. We were renting together. And I left. My stuff still there and as soon as I find a place and a job I ll get my stuff. Its not ideal but at least no one abuses me now. No one makes me feel like I need to justify myself and I dont have constant negativity around me. Having said that, its not the ideal circumstances to heal either... Some times I sit here just feeling so wounded that I cannot see how I will ever feel better. Some times I am OK. Some times I miss him so much. But I am not going back. And Belle - I hope that whatever happens - you wont go back either. Mark, like my ex, is abusive. He is abusive in his lack of conviction, in his confusion, in his affairs and in his lies. I believe that each day with no contact I get stronger. Its like an addiction I need to overcome. TheByz asked me how I fill the void - and I dont know how to do that. I do all those things I listed but I feel so alone in the end of the day. I am doing all I can to stay stong.

Thank you both!