I haven't been around for awhile.

Once I started working again I felt overwhelmed just keeping up with work... but in general I was doing very well.

Things have gone downhill though. I haven't been able to keep up with my bills. Monday they repossesed my car which was a very stressful event. I couldn't go to work today and was in bed most of the day. It is lucky I stayed home because they tried to shut off my electricity again today but I was able to give them a check. Still it was another stressful event.

I was in bad shape at work of course this week and today just couldn't make it in. I stayed in bed for hours and finally forced myself to get up and take a shower which I knew would make me feel better... but it didn't. I felt like I was swimming in stress in the shower and just wanted to go right back to bed.

Instead of going back to bed I decided to try to reconnect here a little bit. One point for me.

I can't call anyone because my phone is shut off too.

I can't see how to get past this hurdle. It feels very surreal.

Right now I think I am mostly hungry so I am going to try to eat something.