I'm a teenager and I'm scared because I fear that next year when I go off to college, I'll still be the depressed,bitter,anti-social, awkward loner that I am now in high school. I want the horrors to end. I want to be a different person, but I cannot escape my mind no matter where I am or what I do. I'm sick of being that creepy chick who stands in the corners of rooms alone refusing to talk with people because she's scared of real interaction. And I fear that I'll always be alone in my mind and outwardly. I'll be crying and dying each day, the fire's of Hell just a bit hotter than the last. No matter what I do I can't escape my mind. I can't run..its faster. I can't hide. At a point I even realized that even if I did go to college and get a great paying career, I won't be happy, people will still think I'm a freak, a walking pile of slow rotting flesh. I'm sorry..I don't know what i expected to get for writing this. i guess I'm a time waster too.