View Single Post
 
Old Sep 22, 2005, 05:48 PM
Overcastbutclearing Overcastbutclearing is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Feb 2005
Posts: 1,033
I usually can express my depression, anger, hurtful and sad feelings that are just generic better. Normally I post in DEPRESSION.
Now, I am starting to do trauma work, if you will.
I am scared poopless. I had some really horrible dreams last night of my childhood abuser. I haven't really had dreams about him in so long. I can avoid and split and dissociate with the best of them.
Now, I am coming face to face with the horrible things that happnened to me. Acts that stopped me from really trusting people, understanding love and the like.
I to this day have issues with affection.
Anyway, since I am starting to do the work that has needed to be done for so long I thought maybe if I embrace it I can heal from it.
I don't know. I am really scared!