Sannah, I mean that I will often hustle and bustle and do things for others, like make them food/drinks, go on errands for them, give up my bed for them or give in to their desires, even if it is at my own expense. I know I SHOULD be taking care of myself and putting myself at priority no. 1 because I don't really have any energy to expend on others, but I do it anyway.... mostly out of kindness, but there is always a little voice in the back of my head saying, "It's good to run yourself ragged for others! That'll show them!" or something similar. It's weird, I know. :/