My pdoc said that he hasn't fully settled on a diagnosis. I show all the symptoms, I'm on meds for it, and in the chat rooms several BP's have told me how similar I am to them. The chances that I am are actually pretty high. But I don't know a hundred percent that I am BP so I feel like fraud for even posting in this subforum. I feel like a fraud to all of you.

When it comes to the people around me I hide so much. People at work, classmates, friends I don't think I've told anyone including my wife, all about me. I have never let anyone get close enough to know the real me so I am a fraud to everyone.