I was doing SO WELL for SO LONG, but I have once again slipped into my internet addiction. And it wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't doing it AT WORK, where they have strict, written policies about no personal internet usage, and they actually say they monitor it.
What the h am I doing?
Problem is, my job started out as a part-time temp position, but they liked me so much they hired me on full-time permanent. But they never gave me any more work! So for the last 2-3 weeks of every month, I am sitting on my butt with nothing to do. It's driving me insane. I will go to my boss and ask for work, and she gives me nothing. I go the rounds of coworkers, asking if I can help them with anything - nothing.
At first I entertained myself by opening up Excel spreadsheets and playing around with my home budget. But that only lasts so long, plus it was just making me obsess over how little money we have and so much debt.
I'm now online almost every day, A LOT. I'm actually at work, right now, posting this.
How can I stop this?
I do think I'm going manic, and it may be because of a med switchup. I talked to my psych nurse on Sunday - she was on vacation for a week. She got me some samples today, so hopefully getting back on the old med will help (we switched because she was having a hard time getting samples, and I couldn't afford it) I have an appointment with her on Wednesday.
What can I do to keep myself busy at work when there's nothing to do, that does not involve going online?
I'm an accountant, I work in an office.
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Martina
30 year old wife & mom to a 5 year old girl
Bipolar Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder
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