I admire your honesty. And I like the time line idea. Its good to have a time frame in mind.

I know how you feel - I still love ex too. I too have moments when I dont want anything to do with him and moments when I just want to know how he is and hug him. Maybe its like how the relationship was - bad good...

For me - I cannot possibly speak to him. I dont know what to say even. I once called and hung up - how immature... He sounded awful. Just his Hello - was sad and low. But I had nothing to say. What can I say? I love you but dont want to see you? My stuff are in the house but I am not coming back? I so wish you could give me what I need please tell me you can? Its all non-sense and wont lead anywhere...

I want to stick to what I want - thing is - that might change and I do not want it to. I just hope I will have the strength to continue not to want to be with him...

Thing is - I already left him in the past and then came back to him only to find 2 years later that his behaviour regressed again... I dont want the hurt and any more disappointment. The notion that he cannot give me what I need is so painful as it is.

Well, I was offered a contract today with a new client so I am really happy about that. Now I can start planning a bit more.

Why do you need Mark to know you are dating? So he knows you are not sitting around waiting for him?