I think your expecting wife and son would go through h*** if they lost you. For me, if I was pregnant right now and my husband did this, I would be completely devestated. Even if I wasn't pregnant.... I'd have a total nervous breakdown. I'd have to check into the mental hospital. Yes, it would be selfish, because you would not only be leaving your wife to take care of your son and baby-on-the-way all by herself for the rest of her life, but you would be putting her and your kids in misery. I know they love you and it's a terrible economy right now, your family could suffer without you, they could be left hungry. And you're all she has? Do you not understand how much that would hurt her? PLEASE, please, please, call a crisis line or 911 and get help. I used to be in this position all the time. I wanted to give up so much, so many times. Until I had my son. Now I can't give up, because he needs me. I can't give up on him. I can't give up on my husband. And I'm all my husband has, he has some family in the U.S., but they abandoned him. I live for the love of my family. I live for the hope and faith that better days will come. My friend just felt the same way as you and my/her friends and I talked her down. Now she says to get to the rainbow, I have to go through the rain, and it's not just raining, it's pouring. My other friend told her, the more it rains, the brighter the rainbow will be. Don't you want to see your little baby-on-the-way's face when she/he is born? Don't you want to watch you kids grow up? Go to their graduations, weddings, see their children's faces when they're born? Would you really want to miss all that? It's not just selfish, it's not fair to yourself. You can get better, here at PC you have found people that will give you support. Please don't give up. You know you're stronger than this, you can make it through and get better for you and your family.