You do understand the part of the military telling me who I was for 13 years. Before that I was an alcoholic and before that rebellious and angry and of course I carried it all with me everywhere I went . So, from here it's a journey to see if I can find the person who I would have been if all the things in my mind wouldn't have confused me. (the military was great I was on auto-pilot until my last year) My last year I stressed out and couldn't do my job so I left. I couldn't fight my depression because my anxieties got the best of me and I didn't know what to do and I would turn one way and then forget what I was doing and start doing something else. I knew I was losing it. Anyway, thanks and as a Marine you do know part of my problem. Attekus (see ya around)