It does mean a lot to me. Thanks ShadowDancer.

I would like to make a small, brief gesture, but I think it would be a futile effort. Perhaps some time later down the track, but I think everything's still too raw at the moment. Her brother, for example, has just had a going away party (he's off to London for three years -- I'll miss em!) I was "unable" to go because "she would be there." He anticipated her reaction, a reaction that only confirms for me she's utterly incapable of fostering any sort of relationship with me. I don't know what she'd say to me if I confronted her, but on a deeper level I think I've got her pegged. To honestly confront her behavior towards me would be to confront herself and clearly, she's not ready for that.

I care about her well being but I have my own life to move on with. We were in a relationship, and we were good friends. It's a real shame she has to respond like this to cope. A real shame.

As for the nature of inconsistency... Oh dear. I think love is what she wants more than anything, but it's the one thing that eludes her because she doesn't understand it. She "loved me heaps and adored me", saying "she didn't know what love really was", then "I'm head over heels in love with Jack" ... she's all over the place! She professes love for friends as well, but has an ability to switch "off" with remarkable ease. It's scary.