great i tried calling for therapy today and he said he will not pay for it. so i found one that was free and he said I couldnt take off work for it. so I found out I could go after work and he said I wouldnt have time. I went ahead and put myself on the 2 month waiting list "without his permission" as for group therapy its tonight at 7 and do you really think he is going to let me go? heck no... id have better luck trying to row up hill without a paddle. maybe I should have put this in the relationship section... didnt realize that was a bigger problem than my drinking.. eekk, which i did have three beers last night. his mom was out of beers (she dirnks over a case a night) and she was out of money and he wasnt going to buy her any if I didnt drink... so this time it was actually him asking me. i was fine without it because i had already taken my night meds at like 8pm. thank you everyone for your comments and suggestions... ((((tatyana)))) ((((byzantine))))