I am so sorry you are feeling this way Fenrir. I really hope you can vent it out here or to your T and get to feeling a little better about the situation. No, no one can ever get rid of the memories the best we can do is try to get past them and get on with our lives in a healthy way. How do you do that? I don't know, I don't have the answers for you, but I wish I did. But I will say that everyone here at PC is here for you and rooting for you! I hope you get to feeling better (((hugs))).