it angers me that a simple word from one person can surge a whole pile of emotions through me which can either make or break my day or even cause an episode. I want to buy my own island and vet ppl before they can live on it..... I would have no news... no newspapers.... just island news lol eg: parrot fell from a tree

Nice ppl only who dont judge or play BS games.

People who dont judge you just because you are having a bad day

People who accpet you whether you are manic, normal or depressed.

People who dont judge EVERY SINGLE MOVE THAT YOU MAKE.

I WANT TO LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE I CAN BE ME MANIC OR DEPRESSED AND STILL FEEL LOVED AND ACCEPTED AND NOT HAVE TO CONSTANTLY EXPLAIN MY ACTIONS ESPECIALLY WHILE MANIC>

I am who I am . love me.... accept me, I am a good person, I am a caring person, I am human and have feelings just like you. I may sometimes act different and you cant understand that but realise I am just like you.... but my mind processes things differently..... I did not ask for this and I do not want this.. I am what I am and all i want is acceptance. That unconditional love that no matter what you do or say ppl know who you really are and still love you reagrdless of your outbursts and claims of hating them and the world. When deep inside... the only thing I hate is myself. The pain and anger deep rooted manifests in ways that hurt other ppl.... to my loved ones, I am sorry, if I could take back all the things I have done and said i would but realise that is not who I am.

I am lost in my head most of the time... thoughts are like webs and trees with braches that brach out never ending jumping from one branch to another then creating new branches until eventually I want to explode as there is too much going on in my head. TICK TICK TICK BOOOOM..... there she goes.... sepnd spend spend --- flirt with huibbys friends like a floosey with my low cut tops and short skirts.... run around practically dancing and sining on my way to work.... approaching anyone and everyone talking so fast and so hard they have no chance to get w rod in edgeways..... now a shopping spree whhooooooooooooooopy yes must have must have i know i dont have alot of money but my need is so strong it doesnt matter that i cant afford it.... love me love me yes I am great I am super and god knows I am his special child... this world has a special meaning for me and i am here for special reasons i can see the world like no other and look down on you mere mortals and your stupid superficial ways and beliefs. I am special and I know it... god knows it and even you know it but so jealous you wont acknowledge it.

Thennnnn ccraashhh booo mmm powwwwwwwwwwwww

Hate hate hate hate - dont wanna live - want to hurt . I am not worthy I hate myself i hate my family ppl suck they are suck liars ... sleep all day sleep all night, east eat eat eat cant stop eating..... DONT OPEN THE CURTAINS I dont want to see the day come in ... I dont want to see ppl I dont want to talk to ppl.... I HATE PPL AND I HATE ME

Tick tick tick tick

NORMAL ----- ARRRRRRRRR NIIICCCCCCE

TICK TICK TICK ..... WHERE TO NOW .... NEXT STOP..... ?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????/