Thanks girls Love you both and I know you have my best interests at heart.

Marjan.. the only reason I did ring him about the bills is that they were "legal action" bills and I wouldn't want any one to get in to trouble like that.. I didn't expect him to ring to be honest.. thought a message would be all I got.
I love him.. I'm a loser I know but I love him...

I am seeing another guy though.. he's a bit young I think but seems really mature and nice and sweet and all the things I look for in a guy. We have similar tastes in music and the same general out look on life.. I will meet him for the first time on the weekend (want to get my hair done first LOL).
I know that I am not really giving myaelf a chance at finding happiness while I am in limbo over Mark but I don't know what to say/do. If there was a chance that he was genuine and made amends then I would like the chance to try again

He didn't actually cheat on me... I know sounds like I am making excuses even as I write this.... He did end things with me before he started dating her... it's just that he didn't tell me he was seeing anyone and he went about it a VERY wrong way.. having her in the house etc... I don't know that I will ever forget that but I think I can forgive it...

Love you guys so much, hope you aren't too disappointed in me.