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Originally Posted by shoez
I have a very deep deep fear that I am just being "stupid" as my mother calls it.
That whatever has happened to me in my past, with my stepfather, mother, and biological father. Was not as bad as it could have been.
Entering therapy, I feel selfish, like I am just there to talk badly about people and I shouldn't talk about what happened because Im just trying to blow it out of proportion.
Sometimes I even question if it did happen and maybe I just imagined things.
I feel like a liar, or an attention seeker.
I just feel like maybe it just plain wasnt bad enough to have to go to therapy for ....like...maybe im wasting my T's time.
Or ... im just being dramatic.
Like these symtoms im having maybe im just...idk being stupid and blowing them up
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Sounds like the old messages that were planted there by the abusers are surfacing.
You are not being stupid.
What happened was bad.
You are not a liar.
You do need attention - finally!
You need your therapy.
Shoez, I'm sorry that you had to experience that while growing up.
I read your profile. You seem to be a gifted thinker and writer. I think your Shoez theme is really creative. I like where you got it and I like that picture in your profile with the shoe tying.