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Originally Posted by mommaof3
They wanted me to take anger management but I turned that down for now. Maybe I should drop a day or ask them to lessen things down. My case worker set my schedule and feels this is the best combo for me. I just hate being agravated all the time, depression going up, feeling less and less connected to the world and really losing myself. ZThe only thing that seems to help with finding me is my persona class.
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Anger management was suggested to me as well. Honestly, it probably would be helpful to me. I do become emotionally "overloaded" and that's when my temper is real short. In the very short-term, I blow up. That is immediately followed by self-hate and all of the temptations that come with that intense emotion.
With kids, I think that regulating my schedule around them is absolutely necessary. For some reason, I have extremely high expectations of myself. I am very forgiving of other people, in their limits and such. Me...I'm not forgiving of myself at all. The reality is that I can only do so much. Finding the right balance in my life feels so tricky! Some days are completely out of whack and I'm convinced that I suck & ought to die. Other days go pretty well, for the most part, and I'm not stuck in self-hate thoughts.
Just wanted you to know that I can relate to how you're feeling. Best wishes to you!