Hi, Rebecca!
Feels as if your heart is broadcasting on one frequency, the wider world on another, and you're caught in an increasingly exhausting game of station hopping that yields more static than clarity.
I hope you find the strength to battle through to the end of your program. More than that, I hope you find a way to guard the most precious part of yourself from the ravages of that battle.
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.