Hi Tatyana... just wanted to say how much I am enjoying your presence here. I am sorry for your heartbreak and hope that as the days go by it does get easier for you to recreate your life without your fiance. It takes time but it does get easier once you find the clarity you need to move forward on your own.

My day is a bit meloncolic. It is the 29th anniversary of my mother's passing. Still feels like yesterday. I day seldom goes by without thoughts of her passing through. My son and I are cooking a feast in her honour tonight and I will share stories of her life with him as we eat some of her favourit food with her. He never met her but I try to let him know her through my stories just the same. My aunt and I usually talk on this day but for some reason she isn't home. I miss that ritual. Will try her again before the day is out. My brother and sister never remember this day so I gave up connecting with them years ago. For several years they actually avoided me because they didn't like that I reminded them of her. Reminded them of their failings mostly. I have invited them to share feasts other years and never did they come so I don't bother them now.