Sannah- Yes I am, and no I don’t really know exactly why last night was bad.

Puzz- It’s really frustrating to say the least. I completely agree with your statement. I do think it is us that keeps us from healing, at least for me that is true. I think it’s much more than just finding another outlet, but allowing ourselves to heal, to actually want to get better. I know I’m not there yet. I need good reason to want to do something. I often avoid risks because I don’t want to risk failure. I’ve caught myself believing in this "black and white, all or nothing” thinking. I don’t want to but feel the need to.

puzz I also wanted to say thank you so much for just taking to me last night.