Very pissed off.The main course I have issues with I seem to have to keep fighting with.

At the start of the semester I went to meet the course manager with the uni disability officer to ensure I got the accommodations my pdoc recommended. I had a ranting post on this meeting on the board somewhere, but to summarise, I got kicked out of the meeting for being in an emotional state, missed it all, and came out with no accommodations made just suggestions that I fix my own ****.

Had a meeting with the person again today as she called me in. She was telling me how I wasn't keeping on track... even though we went over my timeline and i *was on track*. Then she said I wasn't professional enough - not enough happy bounce and crap - um, ****er, depression have you heard of it? You ****ing have, i told you weeks ago!

When she'd ask me about why some things took longer to do, I'd attempt to explain how x, y, z symptoms make it a hell of a lot harder for me and she just goes, 'Mind your attitude... put that aside'... EXCUSE ME?! You ask for the answer, now you want to IGNORE the impacts of my bipolar? F*** you.

So now she's given me a list of things I need to do weekly and I have to see her every week about them. So, doing more for her, ignoring the advice of my pdoc still.

She keeps throwing it back on it being 'my fault' it seems. I acknowledge that I do have a stressful workload, I'm still a full time student with some extra ****. But some of the other stuff, like other courses I gain no stress from them, I love them. And my pdoc says stress isn't really wants making me keep dealing with a few leftover symptoms since being on meds. It is not my fault I feel ****ed up, woman.

Her manner is really cutting - maybe it seems so mainly because I'm depressed. I left the meeting crying. I was starting to have suicidal thoughts come back. Lucky a friend found me and cheered me up. Feeling more stable now.

F*** her.