(((HUG))) Remain strong and positive. Look at the responsibilities you have in your life - these are just one the many reasons for your being.
I suggest trying to get to sleep and waiting until you wake up.
Phone your p-doc or therapist and discuss these feelings with them too. If the urges really get too much, please take yourself to a hospital. Or phone a close friend that has an understanding of what you're going through to keep you company
We're here for you too!!